環島亂行- day1 福隆 & day2 頭城

想環島很久了。

走路, no way!!!
騎腳踏車太累。
騎機車,沒有連續假期沒辦法連續環島, 車子騎到一半要丟著!
坐火車,移動性太差。

一直不知如何開始,結果真的很爛的開始。星期五晚上就已經舉棋不定,不知該用何種方式出發,苦惱之餘就很晚睡,晚睡之餘就很晚起,很晚起之後,還是下不了決心,結果出門的時候已經下午四點!走淡金一路飆向基隆,吃了廟口小吃後,就摸黑上路了,騎著騎著到福隆,結果機車很不配合的自動不斷亂鳴喇叭 (繼電視/浴室之自動開關後, good..現在連機車喇叭都來了),當地住宿全滿,只好棄車回家先,半夜回三重家,我媽還嚇一跳,母女亂聊!

隔天早上起床,卻被花木蘭吸引,一直硬看到結局當中午才出門,上了火車後才發現很蠢地答錯方向到樹林,很無言地回到台北車站後,區間車來後傻眼-才四節車廂,馬上我就重回高中時代沙丁魚車的噩夢,車上還有小男孩忍不住說這樣下去他會死掉。

到了福隆,已經是3點,找到了機車行,機車行老闆很酷的說他無能為力,我也只好坐著等他吃完便當,還好他吃飯的速度很快,只花15分鐘,但是機車在老闆面前表現得很乖,導致老闆沒辦法對症下藥,我很鄉愿地再次騎車出門,果然沒有5分鐘喇叭聲就長鳴不停,我只好又騎回機車行打算寄車回三重,只是老闆已經出發去救爆胎的路人,所以我跟嘗試著把自己小我三歲的孫子推薦給我的阿嬤無話可說後,決定走出店門去吃有名的福隆便當+看海。

回來後,老闆很開心地宣布修好了,幫我重新順過線路就沒事了,而且免費!跟阿嬤道別時,阿嬤還問我什麼時候要回來,看來想找孫媳婦的動機還是很強~下午快五點我終於出發騎往頭城了~

騎北濱,令人期待地是沿途輪番上陣的小地名和景點,雖然我幾乎一個也沒停, 沿著海騎車真的會有好心情,也沒有想像中的危險,真不知以前自己再猶豫不前什麼!

沿途看著龜山島,老實說,我看不出龜山島哪裡像龜! 經過美美的蘭陽博物館後,就到了頭城市區,這裡的民宿便宜地全客滿,騎他的貴衫衫,所以決定還是回台北的溫暖的家,吃了芋冰c後打電話給阿母,阿母問我在哪裡?我說我在宜蘭,想騎北宜回家,阿母聽了就大怒,堅持要我過夜,我心裡想反正騎北宜一個小時就到新店,沒什麼大不了。結果騎了北宜5分鐘,我就退了! OMG, 又暗沒燈,路又彎上坡又很陡,我還沒有厭世的念頭, 聽媽媽的話沒錯,當下我就決定騎頭搭火車了~

沒有做任何功課和規畫就出發的逞罰:環島還每天回家睡,大概只有我了吧! 這次走到了頭城,下次我會從頭城往下走...大概要花好幾個來回,才可以環島完,不過沒關係,最重要的是出發了 :)

親愛的小王子- Little Princes

This book is about One Man's Promise to Bring Home the Lost Children of Nepal.

今年初,聽了李家同的大量閱讀的重要性的演講後,重拾了閱讀的興趣和樂趣。這半年,大概以每周2-3本書的速度看書。沒有第四台和寬頻網路,所以在家時,真的可以做該做的事情,閱讀,聽音樂,打掃,煮飯,和朋友聯繫,玩貓...就算是睡覺也是很重要的。

I found Little Prices this book two days ago in eslite bookshop after I finish my duty @ comuptex, and I read the whole book at the same day I bought it and read whole book again slowly the following next 2 days. Some sectuions of the books are very touching and make me cry. you can't image how ugly the human could be to do the evil things to others for money, but also there are good people are willing to devote on helping people without asking return. The writer Conor is brave, he shows his incredible courage on conquering those difficulties and made the stories with a good endling - children found their way home. also you have to allow people to have time to take decision and take actions - even you have in mind what is the best solutions are. but sometimes you have to wait in a good faith. this book awakes me to help people again - as what I did in an community service club when studies in universities and previous job as PR in a charity foundation - this is one of the things that I am happy to do - but forget it until I read this book.

The best feedback is the joy from feeling of other happies due to you actions. *自身得到的喜樂已經是最好的回饋!

Nepal is alway on my country list to travel and now I have made it on the first few countries to go once I have my long break. I wanna be a volunteer in some NGO again for 3 months. I will make it happen!

One Republic - Secrets

*看'魔法師的學徒'聽到的主題曲,覺得很好聽, 我承認我就是芭樂歌的聽眾

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kind of boring
Need something that i can confess

Till all my sleaves are stained red
From all the truth that I've said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no, I ve been on the brink, so

◎Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the act sencere
So I m gonna give all my secrets away
This time
Dont need another perfect line
Dont care if critics never jump in line
I m Gonna give all my secrets away

My God, amazing how we got this far
It s like we re chacing all those stars
Whoes driver shining big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems we could solve
And when a situation rises
We ll ride it into a moutain Straight to though
I dont really like my flow, oh, so

◎
Got no reason
Got no shame
Got no family
I can blame
Just dont let me dissappier
Imma tell you everything

◎x2

All my secrets away
All my secrets away

122 - my cats

Dear Hugo,

I pick up my second cat last Sunday from my parents' place to my place - as this younger cat becomes so thin. now when I wake up, I will see my lovely two cats sit in front my bed and ask for breakfast. after work, when I lie down on my couch and read the novel or using PC at home, they either sleep or lie down (not sit) next to me, we share the cozy atomosphere at home. I am pround that they are two happy cats! I wish I were a cat~

125 外面的世界很精彩

Dear Hugo,

算命是中國的高級統計學。命運,命運,兩個同一個時候出生的人,也不會有同樣的人生,生活還是操之在己,結果也是是機率的呈現。

今年2月,去算命,把錄音檔拿出來聽, 算命老師說,我是個有自虐傾向的工作狂,是個60分的時候,就想做到70分,做到70分的時候就要做到80分,做到80分的時候-就想做到90分。老闆會很興有這種員工,但是在對人的處理上,也用這個方法的話, 同事會受不了。

容易吃虧,總是做得比別人多,卻不像別人會去要糖吃!所以容易under pay (這點讓人無法忍受!!)。 會哭會吵的小孩有糖吃,可惜我在人前不會哭也不會吵鬧,但久了心裡就委屈不平衡。

外面的世界很精彩~

More hosting

*guest room with a single bed for couchsurfing guest in my current place

My previous hosts are too nice to me, I have to forward such nice experience to other guests. I do my best to host more than 20 guests (should be 23 guests in Milan & Taipei) so far.

Recently, I host some more couchsurfing guests in a few wks, life is fun and interesting. I learn more from other guests from the ways to live life, this makes me review my life. Sometimes, I ask myself, Why can't I do so? what stop myself doing this? By knowing more people, you know yourself better, this is one of the most beautiful thing to make me appreciate couchsurfing so much! Couchsurfing is not all about the free accommondation (this indeed a great benefit comes with couchsurfing, and this makes you travel to more places and longer), it is also about the amazing interaction between people across countries.
I learn from couchsurfing how I interact with people meet first time from a very shy Taiwanese to become more flexible and open mind to interact with others. and of course I can do better by hosting more. :)
I'd love to do host more, but I need to some time for myself to sort the things out in my life and to digest those impacts from my guests too. To be a better host, it is better to not to have too stressful life and more free time to have to host and give better company to my guests.
For now, I change my couch status from yes to a coffee or drink! I will stop to host people until end of June, Now Except two guests are in my hosting list in coming summer - they do not decide when to arrive yet in summer time.
Also I can't wait to couchsurf with others for the coming trips. Although, I don't have any plan yet. I keep my finger across that I may have a longer break (3-6 months) for traveling soon.
Definitely, I have to keep traveling!

愛你的原本的樣子

周五晚上陪一個朋友喝酒解悶,我想我應該跟她說'對,都是他的錯. 這男人真的是太差.怎麼會這麼對你!,但我果然不是好聽眾,最後我忍不住跟她說'不要想去改變他,除非他是心甘情願地為了妳改變,我們真的很難改變一個人原本的樣子,你強求他改變,他勉強自己做不喜歡的事情,最後兩個人都不快樂'。但是,兩個人再一起,求的不就是要快樂?

愛是兩個人的事情,要互相扶持一起走下去, 不就是要先好好照顧好自己,不然在對方不開心的時候, 伸出手照顧對方? 讓對方快樂?


自己做不到的事情,要什麼要加諸於人? 想像如果另一半要求我改變自己, 去遷就他的喜好? 那我就變成了他想要的人, 卻失去了當初那個他想要跟我再一起的我!

20多歲的時候, 以自我為中心, 眼中看到的都是我。要求對方為了我改變這件事情,我沒做過,頂多告訴彼此心中的感受, 然後如果彼此想改變, 就會心甘情願地改變。幾年前, 我和很多女生一樣, 都會焦慮, 都希望對方放很多心思在我身上, 藉由感受在他心中自己的重要, 然後才有安全感。對於這樣依賴別人的自己, 感到很可悲。你的價值, 不需要別人來認定。

也是有情況是,自己是心甘情願地改變, 把生活重心放在他身上,不知不覺中失去了自己, 當你沒有了自己, 對方壓力更大, 所以終究還是分手了。分手以後, 我才發現那幾年生活有多麼封閉,雖然那是段非常幸福甜美的美麗時光。

不是每一次都有勇氣去說出我心中真正的想法, 陷自己處於難受的狀態, 最後就是逃避地默默離開。因為如果在一起不快樂, 又何必在一起?

現在, 我覺得愛就是能讓彼此自在做自己的人又能互相扶持。做自已的前提是, 自己要有辦法好好照顧好自己生活還能追求更各自的夢想。愛跟夢想和自我,必須要並行。

對自己目前期許很簡單: 搞定自己工作和生活, 想清楚未來要什麼? 然後好好地談場戀愛。

More hosting

*guest room with a single bed for couchsurfing guest in my current place

My previous hosts are too nice to me, I have to forward such nice experience to other guests. I do my best to host more than 20 guests (should be 23 guests in Milan & Taipei) so far.
Recently, I host some more couchsurfing guests in a few wks, life is fun and interesting. I learn more from other guests from the ways to live life, this makes me review my life. Sometimes, I ask myself, Why can't I do so? what stop myself doing this? By knowing more people, you know yourself better, this is one of the most beautiful thing to make me appreciate couchsurfing so much! Couchsurfing is not all about the free accommondation (this indeed a great benefit comes with couchsurfing, and this makes you travel to more places and longer), it is also about the amazing interaction between people across countries.

I learn from couchsurfing how I interact with people meet first time from a very shy Taiwanese to become more flexible and open mind to interact with others. and of course I can do better by hosting more. :)

I'd love to do host more, but I need to some time for myself to sort the things out in my life and to digest those impacts from my guests too. To be a better host, it is better to not to have too stressful life and more free time to have to host and give better company to my guests.


For now, I change my couch status from yes to a coffee or drink! I will stop to host people until end of June, Now Except two guests are in my hosting list in coming summer - they do not decide when to arrive yet in summer time.

Also I can't wait to couchsurf with others for the coming trips. Although, I don't have any plan yet. I keep my finger across that I may have a longer break (3-6 months) for traveling soon.

Definitely, I have to keep traveling!

139 - stay positive, foolish, and hugary.

*an opening party of shop in Taipei eastern zone

Dear Hugo,

A friend tells me to live @ Taipei is too comfortable, after staying 2 months here he can’t feel any difference anymore. This is interesting and so true, living in Taipei is the most convenient thing is the world; everything is handy to access in an affordable price in local salary level.


You may join a late party in Friday night, eat late @ local food at street food vendors, a 2am movie, or even stay a 24 hrs bookshop in downtown overnight, watch a very early morning breakfast, then catch a taxi home and wake up late to have brunch. Thousands of 24 hrs convenience stores are presented everywhere in Taiwan.

I come back Taipei for 2.5 years, once I lost feelings about the life due to unreasonable stressful job. After moving out of my parents’ place and rent my own space, now I cool myself to have clearer mind set about what to move on for next. Due to slowdown of my project (out of my control), I have more energy for my private life again. I gain back the energy to grow myself like a teenager. Also I want to explore new countries and cities more, and spend time on those beautiful things and enjoy the life more.

Taipei is definitely my favorite city (not only in Taiwan, but also in the world), I feel too nice to live here without new changes coming – no vibration. I need something new to challenge life again. I am thinking to press pause button for a while and travel around. There are still so much to see and do. I feel like to get out of Taiwan and to live other cities for a while (whatever for traveling or working). Although, I have no idea where to head to yet.

Green Island - 綠島小夜曲

*很美的綠島海岸線

4月29日到5月2日, 3天的的隨興小島行。我從台北搭夜車到台東, 早上六點和我的德國沙發客,在車站會合後,一起到富岡漁港坐船到綠島(很晴天霹靂地知道現在沒有船到蘭嶼)。
第一天,最早到卻差點上不了船,好險在船開動10分鐘前補到船位。沿途風浪很大,不過有飛魚伴著船航行,不過風浪真的大到讓我想吐。


*機車
一上島租了機車 (在綠島, 沒有機車就等同沒有腳),跑去傑克飯店的咖啡店補充咖啡因,雖然只是喝咖啡, 販店的大姊還是很親切地拿出地圖,告訴我們綠島有哪裡好玩, 還有一隻很厲害的狗, 躺在沙發上跟我們一起聊天。


*將軍岩,天氣很差
結果一待就是兩個小時,搞到最後老闆叫我們看飯店外出購物去。出了飯店居然就下起雨,一躲雨就是一個多小時,把本來外宿(wait out overnight) 的計畫打亂, 最後只好找民宿啦, 第一天只環了半個綠島。


*綠島海灘

晚上出去吃飯的時候, 吃了一頓長達3小時的晚餐,中途有醉漢山豬(I am mountain pig!)攪局,一直問我為什麼要跟德國人說英文? 跟德國人怎麼認識的? 要解釋沙發衝浪真的太複雜, 所以我被當成了伴遊妹 (儘管看我的條件就知道我根本不是當伴遊妹的料)。看著山豬猜我年紀只有25歲的份上, 我可以原諒他 (雖然醉漢的話不可信..但女人就是傻)。我也不懂老闆娘一直強調德國人很有錢的論點是從何而來? 金髮藍眼天生給人高貴的印象啊~ So unfair!

第二天早上起床, 以為是晴空萬里的好天氣,吃早餐後又下起大雨, 只好逛起紀念品店, 趁著雨小點又繼續上路, 雖然天空不作美, 一起看起來灰濛濛, 但綠島的天然火山地形和綠-造就強烈亞熱帶島嶼風格, 騎著機車到處晃的感覺也真的太愜意了! 淋著雨騎車...騎過石朗, 大白沙, 朝日溫泉,睡美人與哈巴狗, 涼亭,柚子湖, 柴口等。雨下下停停.陽光時而露臉,灑在海面上的藍綠色,真的是太美~繞著山,雲霧瀰漫, 望著海看著夕陽和飛機起降,這份悠閒, 真的是要有勇氣走出台北才能夠得到~



*燈塔旁的小沙灘

落日後, 繞去燈塔旁的小沙灘,這裡的淺灘很適合游泳, 坐在沙灘上挑著貝殼和星沙,然後衝去吃BBQ, 這是我這輩子吃過最難吃的燒烤, 尤其旁邊還有很吵的聯誼大學生再唱卡拉ok! 然後又回到傑克飯店喝咖啡.然後,在黑嘛嘛的一片黑裡,騎車衝去朝日溫泉,在星光下享受著世界上唯三海底溫泉, 為今天畫下完美句點。

第三天, 艷陽高照的好天氣, 決定殺去柴口浮潛, 300塊一次真是太便宜了! 看到一群群,魚和彩色的珊瑚在身邊游來游去, 衝來綠島玩真是太值得! 離開船還有幾個小時,為了明信片上的海蝕洞/睡美人/哈巴狗太迷人, 為了紀念品店老闆怎麼去後,決定要去探險,沿著珊瑚礁岸移動跳躍, 最後終於到了懸涯底的海岸邊的海蝕洞, 水無敵藍和冰涼, 天好藍, 這地方變成我印象中綠島最美的地方。


*藍天綠海


*海岸線


*海蝕洞


*睡美人


*海蝕洞in睡美人


*水好冰, 水底下的珊瑚很美


*奇岩怪石

當我以為我為了這趟旅程,畫下最令人難忘的句點,準備打道回府時, 走回到機車旁, 才發線上山下海時, 把機車鑰匙搞丟了! orz...真的對租車行萬分抱歉~老闆還要自己來把車騎回去~搭船回台東後, 當天我搭夜車回台北, 到台北是星期一早上, 回家洗完澡就去上班,真是充分運用時間阿~

如果不是和外國人一起旅行,我不會看到綠島這麼多的原始風光,台灣人沒有這麼愛上山下海的啦! 綠島行, 深刻感受台灣真的很棒。一定要找機會花一個月騎機車環島,把台灣走透透!


*德國沙發客Moritz

143

Dear Hugo,

Being busy to cath up the progress with endless tasks in the office, I can't think and care too much anymore. I get to remove some things to relax myself a little bit.

There are some plans made for June, I am looking forward to meet old classmtes in NCKU for 10 yrs reunion and lots of delicious street food in Tainan. How do 10 years change a person's life?

I travel to 18 countries, work with 6 companies for 7 yrs, get a master degree, live in 2 countries, host 23 guests and stay 12 couches, know so many new friends worldwide, learn italian language, create many shopping cities, move many times....etc.

瓦納納西 (Varanasi)--讓恆河洗淨一身的罪惡吧

搭著夜車造訪Varanasi, 火車應該在早上8:40 到站, 卻延遲到11:30, 讓我心情變很差, 因為當天要搭晚上7:15的車回德里, 原本10小時的拜訪現在只剩6小時。 火車上我睡上鋪, 下鋪是一個法國來的老奶奶, 照著丈夫的遺願, 帶著老伴的骨灰來灑在恆河中-這是老奶奶第二次造訪Varanasi, 第一次造訪是38年前的事。法國老奶奶人很好地讓我從火車站搭便車到恆河畔的飯店,然後我跟老奶奶道別, 迫不及待地想從小巷弄中鑽出河畔的路上。
跟一家商店問路時候赫然發現是一家生意很好的Lassi – Lassi Blue, 忍不住叫了一杯香蕉口味的lassi, 在等待的過程中跟對面的三位旅客 (韓國男生和一對波蘭情侶)閒聊, 才發現這家店是韓國人必訪的Lassi店, 相談甚歡下決定下午一起行動。

*可愛的Lassi 杯子

沒想到一鑽出小巷, 首先映入眼簾的就是火葬場, 成堆的木材, 一個個的屍體相繼被浸入恆河水中在洗淨一身的罪惡後, 放在恆河旁架好的木頭堆上, 一把火點燃, 最後化為灰燼在投入恆河中, 和天地從此和為一體。

不過,當火堆中露出一截被燒成一半的小腿和腳掌赤裸裸地呈現在眼前時, 是震撼的。波蘭男看完火葬就閃回旅館睡午覺了, 真令人羨慕的悠閒。

*成堆的火葬木材

我和波蘭女和韓國男, 走過一個接一個的Ghat (河階),中途還有印度人要求拍照, 沒想到我們在觀光景點被當成景點欣賞, 明明是二月份的寒冬, 天氣卻炎熱地令人冒汗, 最後韓國人受不了地逃走了。剩下我和波蘭女在一個接一個的河階漫遊,走累的就入境隨俗地在河階上來杯Masala Tea最後我們走到了波蘭情侶旅館的屋頂, 俯瞰整個舊城區享受著微風徐徐 (波蘭情侶住的地方真是太便宜了-200盧比一晚)。然後走回河畔,繼續我們的河階漫遊一直到Tulsi Ghat。殺紅了眼才找到80盧比 (旅遊中心老伯指點我的合理價)的船, 河上的風景真是太美了, 寧靜而優雅, 恆河水並沒有想像中的髒臭, 河岸的建築在行走的時候並沒有這麼美麗但是在河上看就美不勝收, 跟河上賣花的小弟花了20盧比在花盤上點上蠟燭, 隨著恆河漂流。晚上六點半在河畔上是有固定祭典的. 但我跟韓國人都要趕夜車回德里, 就只好忍痛放棄說再見。

*放在河上的小花

也許是因為都學設計和做網站, 我跟波蘭女很聊得來, 所以有一趟快樂的河階漫步, 而且他男友也是沙發衝浪客, 我衷心希望有一天他們也會來台北來當我的客人 

我和韓國人搭人力車回車站的時候, 一路上司機硬要講自己很辛苦,還說我們試他的brother和sister, 下車時明明講好了50塊, 給100塊要司機找錢時, 司機卻不想找錢, 我氣得跟路邊小販買了花生,換零錢, 結果在火車上和其他乘客聊起這件事的時候, 其他乘客說其實50盧比也不過才1美金, 就給他就好了, 幹嘛吵,想想也對, 這真的是小錢, 為了小錢掃興, 得不償失。再說, 如果用這點小錢可以讓司機開心, 好像也沒什麼不好。我本來覺得對司機這種不守信的態度很生氣, 但是現在想想, 為何不能入境隨俗, 吃虧就是占便宜。來印度就是要chanti chanti (peace and take thing slowly, clam down)

回德里的夜車車廂中, 同車廂我遇到了一個印度導遊, 瑞士人, 義大利人, 他們對於我一天造訪Varanasi 和 Rresikesh 的瘋狂舉動覺得難以理解, 不過他們都是印度通, 瑞士人和義大利人甚至還會講印度話。這印證了, 來印度的人要嘛就是發誓不再來, 不然就是深深愛上這個國家會再回來。有幾位男士的陪伴, 漫長的車程變得很愉快。

再見, Varanasi, 也許38年後我會和法國老奶奶一樣, 再次跟你相遇。

母親節

*吳媽媽

帶媽媽買了三雙鞋, 一件衣服, 一頓下午茶+晚餐, 天南地北地跟媽媽聊天,說一些平常不會說的話。

很多話媽媽總要要說了好多次才能夠進到心裡面,媽媽心裡面的苦,我很難感同身受,但是眼淚會告訴你她的痛,然後滲進你心裡。我真心只希望她開心健康過生活,畢竟已經走到了大半人生,很難改變已經發生地事情,放下那些不愉快,往前走吧!

我不是很孝順貼心的女兒, 過自己的生活,活在自己的世界中, 拼命往前衝時, 看不到周圍發生的事情, 但回頭總是會看到媽媽在後面默默地守候我, 即使是要哭著送我走。即使我變成剩女, 媽媽還告訴著我只要你開心, 不一定要結婚。

無論在外面受了多大的委屈和挫折, 媽媽總是最後的避風港, 所以說, 有媽的孩子真的是寶!

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Dear Hugo,

很多事情,在乎了, 心情會不好, 學會不在乎和放下,日子會比較好過。但對喜歡的事情要有熱情和堅持,儘管勇氣需要一點一滴累積。有想要做的事情, 要馬上去做,時機過了就過了。慢慢地移動, 漸漸地脫離目前的生活,學會了不嚴肅,找回孩子氣,找回動力。

老師說,讀好書,上好學校,得到一份好工作,找到好對象,組個好家庭,就會有幸福美滿人生。這個說法顯然忽略了很多的變數。當童話故事不再美麗,要用什麼去維持那絢麗感?

昨天早上重回課堂, 花了很大的力氣才讓自己不昏迷,上完課匆匆離開,其實大可以留下認識更多朋友。 上完課覺得,原地不動, 世界仍在快速轉動,還是要往前進(錢!?)進。

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Dear Hugo,

Having many changes in my life recently makes me feel live again. Slightly losing weight is a good sign,Weight is always a stressful indicator of my life, losing weight mean I am getting control of my life. When I am not so stressful, I can take care of my eating and private life well. Start hosting many surfers from different countries, meeting different people worldwide and sharing different stories also motives me to do more things.

the most important thing is I know ' I am happy again'. though I don't really know what will happen next but I am happy!

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Dear Hugo,

靦腆的笑容,修長的身形,白淨的臉龐,執著的熱情!走在生命不同的階段,在這短暫的交集中,更放鬆看待生活,更勇敢地面對自己。一起生活下廚做菜旅行, 這種跳脫一般定義,非情人的異性朋友相處模式,很Free。

活在當下,開心最重要~

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Dear Hugo,

今天老闆找開會,聊了一下一些工作上issue,趁機表達了ㄧ直沒有說出口的話,老闆很忙,談話匆匆結束。謝老師說,有話要說出口,不要到了忍無可忍讓雙方無路可退,所以我就說了,這是個pre notice了,如果老闆夠敏感應該感受的到。如果不能轉彎,也許這就是終點了。對這份工作,我問心無愧。何時走出這個迷霧森林,多一些陽光,水,氧氣?

今天工作上發生了大變化,個性依然大條,遇到了就是要處理,就這樣!
回到家,找了之前的部門同事大訴苦,感謝天....起碼還有大吐苦水的對象!

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Dear Hugo,

公司新規定,九點前到公司入座,希望順便把自己作息調整成'早上八點到公司上班,晚上八點離開公司的新作息',yeah, still working for 12 hrs. sad, but sometimes you have to follow the game rules.

早到辦公室的好處是可以靜下心來把這一周要做的事情列出來。早上老闆今天對全隊精神喊話了2 hr,最後說每個人在周五前跟他要有個個別面談。很好,剛好我可以順便跟他討論一些一直開不了口的事情。

下午又開了ㄧ個很長的周會。忘了補充咖啡因,搞得我頭很疼, PUSH不了在德國的服務商,沒有進度可以趕,上網看一些新東西來刺激靈感,也想了幾個拖了很久的案子。下午其它單位來了ㄧ封信,請我在月底到該單位做專案的introduction. 在自己單位爹娘不疼的孩子, 其他單位卻很有熱情想知道~這是第一次,要對超過100人的外國人做training!

晚上, 一鼓作氣,訂了週四晚上去台東的車票,周日晚上回台北,一趟三天兩夜的短旅行。
是的, 周五要請假出去玩耍!

現在,下班後的生活, 沒有第四台, 沒有沙發客, 只有很慢的無線網路, 回到家餵過貓,煮了碗蔬菜湯,聽著爵士樂,窩在沙發上寫日記, 睡前念一下西班牙文, 做一些自己真正喜歡的事情, no rush, 慢慢又找回了對生活的Power~

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*騎了好久,終於看到海~

Dear Hugo,

今天早上起床,看到晴空萬里,心中有點懊悔,如果也可以像他在澎湖,躺在白沙灘上,還可以跑去浮潛,那該有多好? 為了彌補這悔恨,在打掃完房子洗完衣服後, 牽著單車小黃騎往北海岸, 經過無數該死的上下坡,終於看見了海, 天空很藍, 先經過了淺水灣, 路邊無數的希臘式風格的餐廳, 想著下次也要約朋友來這走走聚餐。北海岸的海水帶點藍綠的顏色十分美麗, 在北海岸自行車道上,停留在一個小沙灘上踩踩水,那個沙灘有很多礁瑚和綠藻, 我在礁瑚間跳躍, 最後躺在沙灘上傻笑小睡了一會,走的時候抓了幾隻寄居蟹給小姪子小姪女當禮物。然後繼續踩向白沙灣, 4月的天氣是最適合的戲水的, 太陽夠暖又不會到難以忍受, 水溫溫的, 海邊已經有些遊客,但還沒有到大爆炸的地步。對於出遊的人來說, 這是個完美的外出日。

一路上騎著小黃, 想著是原來台灣這麼美, 一直想著要出國度假, 但是離住家一個多小時的地方, 就有這麼美麗的海景陽光和沙灘, 隨時都可以度假放鬆阿!

下個周末要去東部走走, 如果生命就該浪費在美好的事物上, 從今天開始要用很多很多美好的片段來填滿生活!


*seaview@北海岸腳踏車道


*晴朗的藍天+藍綠色的海水,令人身心舒暢


*散步小情侶@腳踏車道旁的小沙灘


*回到家後從陽台看到的美麗夕陽

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*我種的可愛小樹

Dear Hugo,

今天早上起太晚,還是出門上山去木柵種樹,再捷運上看完了一本書, 種完樹再忠孝復興站轉車的時候,改變了回家的計畫走出了捷運站,去老友記吃了滑雞豬肝粥,然後找了家salon修剪了讓我有點煩躁的翹髮, 剪完髮頭痛欲裂的我,拐進了東區的咖啡店,點了杯咖啡配上鬆餅,上上網,接下來我會去買幾件好看的上衣,逛誠品買西班牙課本,然後坐計程車回三重家,享受一下family time。

目前的生活,不好不壞,只是淡到讓我有點無法忍受。前陣子招待沙發客,現在出門去環遊台灣,說不忌妒是騙人的? 燃起我也有種想上路的衝動. 我在心裡不斷問自己的問題是"what do i really want and what do i really need for my life?"

我想尋找一個新的出發點,設了一個截止日,找到這個答案。在這段時間,會盡力去改變生活,如果還是改變不了現狀,起碼那截止日後,給自己一個長旅行,當坐幾年認真工作的獎賞。

*大學畢業前的我,有寫日記的習慣。我總是以Dear Hugo開始, 日記是屬於自己和自己的內心對話。即使是年過30,不再是那個年少不經事的少女,我還是覺得迷網,對未來還是有無限的好奇和憧憬,所以我想再一次,和心中的那股聲音說說話。